What Would Jesus Do?

I know y'all, it's been a hot minute since I last wrote a blog! It's funny though, this question has been on my heart and mind constantly; to the point during my 5 mile runs this past week, God said to write the blog! So here we are, with this big question- What Would Jesus Do? As you can guess it, there's a story to share.

So right now I'm a surgical tech, and while this isn't my calling/forever plan, I'm pretty thankful for my current job/career! I've met so many friends that I wouldn't have met otherwise, have learned so much, truly it's been a blessing without the calling! Originally, I was working at a children's hospital and was there for so long, I could feel myself needing to go and get a break essentially. When I had left, I felt like I had so many friends there and got along with everyone, so on and so on!

Your girl came back at the end of July to work at the children's hospital, and at first I was really excited! It was nice to come back to a placed I had liked a lot, to a lot of people I had considered friends and so on! However, there's been a shift and a change; it wasn't the same place or even a lot of the same people. There's already been quite a bit of conflict, and where usually I click and hit it off with people, it seems like I haven't really clicked with a lot of people. There were people that I had considered friends in the last season, where God has shown me it was actually the enemy with a mask on.

All of this to say, there's been a lot of tough emotions. There's been moments I've questioned if I've made the right decisoin coming back to this hospital. I've asked, "why am I here or in this career" when both God and I KNOW this isn't my calling or the plan for the rest of my life. I've felt like I've had to walk on eggshells and watch what I say and not to breathe wrong and so on. Yet, it's also funny, I've caught myself asking some big questions: what would Jesus do if He was in my shoes and position? How would Jesus handle this situation? How would Jesus still love, especially when it's hard to love? What would Jesus say? So on and so on...

God had reminded me how Jesus actually dealt with much worse and much harder. I was reminded of how Jesus was crucified, carried a cross, and died on that cross for us, for me, for you reading. On that cross, in pain, suffering, Jesus prayed for us, for His loved ones. He had asked God to forgive those hurting him, to forgive us. He still loved, He had seek to understand, He had asked and even died for our forgiveness. Just a beautiful example of how to live, how to love, and how to treat people.

I realize in this pruning season, God has me where I'm at to teach me more and more how to be like Jesus. Instead of being someone that jumps to anger or assumptions, learning to slow down and seek understanding from all perspectives. Instead of assuming the little I know is all the truth there is to know, taking the time to ask questions and find out the whole truth. Instead of letting things or people harden my heart, keeping my heart soft and full of love. Insteading of avoiding conflict, learning how to have conversations and staying in a positon of love. Instead of reacting quickly or letting my emotions have control, waiting to respond and staying emotionally stable. Instead of withdrawing or going quiet when things happen, properly learning my emotions and what is the root of that emotion, and talking to my people so I don't hang onto the emotions and let it turn me bitter or angry. He has me in a position to grow, learn, fix my heart condition on another level I didn't know there was. Yet, I'm so thankful God is fixing my heart and attitude. I'm so thankful He has me in a position to be more like Jesus. I'm thankful He's helping me keep my heart soft. I pray this encourages someone, helps someone realize the season they might be in, and so on! I also pray you know that you are so loved, thank you for reading❤️