To All The Fellas I've Ever Loved, Thank You

Now, I have a good idea of what you might be thinking as you're reading this; "Nat, isn't there a movie with a similar title?". You're right, there is a movie with a similar title, but this one isn't about the movie. It's truly to all the fellas I've ever loved before, more like thought I loved. Now granted, you have to realize I didn't have my first official boyfriend until I was 17, and let me tell y'all, I thought this guy was it, that he was the one! We were going to get married, had planned our life and everything. But God had a different plan! Same for the other fellas, and what's funnier is I've only technically been in 1 official relationship; the other ones were what we like to call "situationships". All of those fellas I geniunely thought I loved, and don't get me wrong: I don't doubt that I loved them, but I was more in love with the idea of being in love. I wanted to make all those "relationships" work when God had made abundantly clear it wasn't meant to be. The reality of the situation is that with all the fellas I had a "relationship" with, I would have settled on them. God doesn't want me to settle, nor does He want YOU to settle. God also didn't want these fellas to settle as well. While it may be easy to regret being with someone because it didn't end up the way you wanted, I can truly say I have no regrets with any of the fellas. I have no negative feelings towards them, no hate, bitterness, anger, or resentment. If anything, I'm thankful for all the lessons they've taught me. I've learned what I wanted and didn't want from a man or relationship. I've learned what a man is and isn't. I've learned about areas I've had to heal in and work on. I've learned that hurting people hurt people, but that cycle doesn't have to continue forever. I've learned to LISTEN and TRUST myself and the Holy Spirit when it's telling me something, especially about people. I've learned that I deseve true love, that I want to be truly and properly loved. I've learned to trust God, to trust His timing, to trust that He has someone picked out special for me, even when it's not happening on my own timing, even when I begin to doubt or lose hope. I've learned to never ever, ever settle, that the man I'm praying everyday for is out there. There are things in this single season God still wants me to work on and accomplish for myself, and I'm preparing myself to be the Proverbs 31 wife I will be for my future hubby one day. So, to all the fellas, if you're reading this by chance, I just want to say: thank you, I forgive you, and in return I ask for forgiveness, because I wasn't perfect either. I pray that you're happy and at peace in life. I pray you have found (or will find) the woman you were meant to be, and receive all the blessings, love, and God's best in this life. Thank you for the lessons, and for the season you were in my life.